Love Knows No Labels

optimisticrealist:

forever and for always. i promise.

Our trip was…well….eventful. And you just dropped me off at home. So much shit went down. And I’m going to stop attempting to say I’m sorry, and instead, show you. I know you said we’re okay, and that we’re still together. But that we just have to breathe for awhile. And I know you promised me it wasn’t like our friend’s “thing” right now….you know what I’m talking about. But you know how my mind works. I trust you though. I trust you with my heart and my body and my mind…I trust you. And I promise you I’m going to try and not let my mind over think things. I promise. I love you my Little Spoon. I do. More than life itself. And though words aren’t much, I’m going to say it one last time.

I’m sorry. And I should have made better decisions than what I did. But know I love you. And I want you. In every capacity wanting you means. I….I love you. 

I’ll stop now.

I hope you sleep well tonight…I miss your arms around me.

ilYsm<3 only you…forever you…..you, yes. you. ;)

Goodnight babygirl.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Big Spoon

gabiissober:

This is fucking amazing.

if you’re gay, that’s cool

if you’re a lesbian, that’s cool

if you’re bisexual, that’s cool

if you’re straight, that’s cool

if you hate on somebody for their sexuality, fuck you

Hey babe…

Im sorry Ive been preoccupied lately with the bf, but please dont think that means that I dont love you as much, or that things aren’t still “new” between us…And just because we’ve been together over a year now doesn’t mean that each kiss, each touch, each time we make love, each time we’re just “being” together, doesn’t feel like the first time - because most of the time…it does!  Sure are there more then a few times when I take our love for granted…probably…and I should stay on top of being a better lover to you - in every sense of the word…I know. I wish gas wasn’t so damn expensive, and I wish you had a job and a car…meh…anyway, Im getting screamed at as always, but please know that I do love you…and us…thank you for being my love and my best friend

<3 xo

LS

I miss you…a lot. And here’s a mini rant. I’m sorry. But I can’t keep it on my chest. I’m so happy you found your bf. I’m so happy he makes you happy. And I’m not jealous. I just….I miss waking up to a text message saying good morning and I love you. I miss random texts saying I love you throughout the day. I get it, you’re caught up in the newness of you and him. And I expect nothing less. But….can we bring our newness back? I try to do cute things for you to do that…..but…is it working? Again, I’m not angry, I’m not jealous. I’m happy for you. I just miss you (geographical suckage,) I miss the cute text messages that got me through my day, I miss you. And I can’t wait to spend a whole week with you. I’m so excited. 

Point of this whole thing. I know you’re spending a lot of time with your bf. And I’m happy you’re not always at home. And I’m happy for the two of you. But please, can we bring some of our newness back? I know for a fact that this bf of yours likes me. I know he doesn’t care if you wake up and shoot me a text  saying good morning and I love you. I know he doesn’t care (provided you’re not “doing” anything) if you take time out to just send me those cute little text messages that you used to send me. In fact, knowing him, he’d want you to put his two sense in saying hi or how are you too. 

I love you and I miss you my beautiful Little Spoon. 7 days. 7 days until I get to spend a whole week falling asleep and waking up in your arms. You have no idea how much just the thought of this coming week has been getting me through. I can’t wait to see you. But please…..just a text here and there….I don’t want to seem needy and naggy. But…I like…no, I love those little messages. They really do get me through my day sometimes…..as I hope mine do for you. 

I love you more than life itself.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

~Big Spoon

I know I come across as annoying sometimes. And I know you’re out with people. But if you can reply to someones status…can’t you at least let me know you’re okay? I love you, you know. And I tend to worry about you driving and being all out and about in this weather. So if you could please just let me know you’re okay…that’d be amazing. Because this whole not hearing from you thing worries me….a lot. I want you to be safe. Because I want you in my arms for the rest of my life. And I’m sorry if I piss you off sometimes…I just care about you. I cherish you. And I can’t imagine life without you. I’m sorry if I’m over protective…but…..I love you.

I hope you get in touch with me soon.

ilYsm.

xoxoxoxoxoxox

~Big Spoon

optimisticrealist:

i trust you. i trust that if it came down to it you’d choose me again. i trust our love so much that i shouldn’t be scared. again it all boils down to my own insecurities…me not being able to give you the world like other people can. but i trust you. i trust in your love for me. and i love you more than you could ever imagine. 

ilYsm…only you….always and forever <3

(LITTLE SPOON HERE)

Im curious to hear how everyone’s participation in this event went.  I especially appreciate those who chose to, instead, speak up - WAY UP - about their sexuality and the harassment they endure.  As a bisexual woman who lives a poly lifestyle (having multiple loves in my life - right now I have a bf and a gf), it is REALLY hard for me to be “out” in my profession because people think that my sexuality and lifestyle choice will affect my ability to do my job (which obviously isn’t the case).  I feel bad for my gf sometimes in that I can be public with my bf without anyone saying a word…but if I am out with her in my community or around certain people, I have to not hold her hand, or I cant be as cuddly with her as I want to, or I cant say “Oh hey, this is my girlfriend…”…because I could lose my job, or my parents would find out and right now they are supporting me and they would toss me out in about two seconds.  So…I too deal with the realities of the difficulties of being who I am in this world…I can’t walk hand and hand down the street with my bf and gf…Sure, I can in certain situations…and I COULD be TOTALLY out about it and say fuck you to the world…but what would that cost me??  It would cost me probably everything - and is it worth it?  Is it worth losing my financial security over which helps provide a life for my family?  I dont know…maybe Im not as brave as others…or maybe, just maybe, society isn’t brave enough to love me for who I am…not who I sleep with…Just sayin.

Big Spoon here.

So today I wore my Legalize Gay shirt from American Apparel to school, only I had made a few alterations to it. The front had the Legalize Gay print on it, but underneath it I wrote National Day of Silence April 15th 2011 (I’ll post pictures asap.) Down the side it had, in big letters, DOS. And then the rest of the words filled in smaller next to the big letters. On the back it says:

Today I take a vow of silence for those who are currently being bullied for their sexuality, as well as those who have taken their lives. Be Silent. Stop the Abuse. No More Bullying.

I walked into the campus mini-bookstore to grab a soda before class, and it just so happens this SUPER Christian lady was in there (nothing against Christians at all, but you know the ones that give them all a bad name? This was one of those people.) She had the bag with the Jesus fish, gold cross around her neck, and some shirt with a quote from the bible on it. As I was paying for my drink, she read the back of my shirt. When I turned to walk out, she looked pointedly at me and said. “You’re going to hell.” I put down my bags and got out a piece of paper and a pen. I wrote, “This is what this day is all about. Ignorant people like you not knowing what you do to people.” 

The cashier, an old black woman, looked at me and said, “Baby, I’m a Baptist but I don’t hate, you keep doin’ you and you’ll do just fine.”  I walked out of the bookstore to the bitter Christian womans mutterings and my head held high that I made my stand with confidence. 

Hey Big Spoon - I think we are - crazy! <3

I’m sorry I screw up sometimes. I wish I could be perfect for you. I’m sorry I didn’t delete X from skype like I said I would. I don’t want him like that. At all. I just feel sorry for the shit situation his life is right now. I really truly just feel sorry for him. 

You are the one I want to live my life with. You are the one I want to marry. You are my whole heart, my world, my everything. And I adore you. I cherish every moment I get to call you mine. I cherish even more every moment you’re in my arms. 

I can’t wait till we get to spend days on end together…our upcoming vacation will be a start….but I just can’t wait till the days I fall asleep in your arms and wake up to a beautiful you. 

I love you my Little Spoon <3 

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

~Big Spoon

mallilovesmayra: